Ciara

How are you feeling right now?

I’m actually remarkably well, I’m feeling bad about that for other people. I’m a very practical person so I’m not worried, whether I’ve had the virus or not, I don’t know, but I’m just enjoying the downtime and the opportunity to catch up on all of the projects that I’ve wanted to do for a long time. I have to be careful though, because I know I should be slowing down, and that’s perhaps why I got sick, I find it very hard to slow down. It’s a habit, this pattern of being busy, and then all of a sudden when that changes, it feels uncomfortable I suppose, when you’re not used to relaxing or doing things slowly.

What do you really miss as a result of the pandemic?

Other than the obvious, the hugs and having tea with my parents. I miss my great niece, she’s two, my niece sends me videos and she’s just adorable. That niece is pregnant, she’s great but she’s due in ten days and the thought of not being able to help out or not being there to see the baby, that’ll be tough. But at least we’re coming into the summer and can hopefully see each other in our gardens.

What is something that you’ve gained?

Even though my first answer sort of contradicts this, I have learned a little bit to slow down. And also, in doing that, I’m learning that while I slow down, I can still fit everything in. And gratitude, even taking the dog for a walk, rather than thinking ‘I have to do it’, I’m grateful, I’m never going to complain about it again. I really hope to hold on to that feeling of ‘we can’, and we this because we want to, not because we have to.

Who are you most worried about?

I’m really not a worrier, the only thing that had me nervous about this is my parents. I was doing their shopping for them, so when I got sick, I was nervous while I was sick – not for myself but at the thought that I may have passed it on. I’ve also seen that all the work that I’ve done over the past couple of years, the meditation that I’ve done, I don’t allow the thoughts to run away, I don’t allow the looping negative and worrying thoughts to start, I’m able to stay present.

What are you most hopeful for right now?

That what we’ve learned will remain, that the changes, globally, will have some impact – hopefully on the environment and also on humanity. I don’t think that things are going to go back to normal, I think a lot of people won’t have had any positive learnings out of this, they’ll just go back to distracting themselves from reality, but I think for a large portion of people, it’s changed us and hopefully we’ll see the impact of that on the world and we’ll evolve from it.